My Verbal Soul

5 minutes

Just give me 5 minutes of your time
Let me say everything that I can
Let me take you inside my mind
Maybe then you will truly understand

I can’t do it by text or by verse
And I can’t do it over the phone
It’s too complex to converse
If We are both home alone

I want to look you in the eyes
I want you to see my face
I want you to feel on the inside
How I feel about you everyday

Just 5 minutes of your precious time
And I’ll drop the subject forever
There’s so much that’s on my mind
That I don’t want to hold forever

You may already think you know
Cause I’ve dropped a few hints
But one of us is still confused
So we need it to make sense

Maybe I’m wrong, maybe I’m crazy
Maybe I’m overthinking shit again
Maybe you don’t want to be with me
Maybe youre happy being just friends

Maybe I just can’t accept that
After all these years together
And you just can’t help that
You don’t see things gettin better

If that’s the case and it may be
Then I don’t know what to say
But if its not and there’s a “maybe”
Then please give me 5 minutes of your day.

Voice to text..

They say I’m genius
Or maybe insane
never think with my penis
Always with my brain.
I over think everything
To the point I can’t sleep
Up all night thinking
Instead of counting sheep
My words are mine
And mine alone
Sometimes they rhyme
Sometimes, no.
It’s whatever I feel
I have to get them out
But things too real
To speak out my mouth
So this notepad became
What used to be my voice
And i can’t complain
It is really my choice.

This time around.

Seems like every few years
I get back in the same rut
Soak my face with new tears
And swear I’ll change but..

Here in am again, same routine
But something’s different..
Something has changed me
Some things aren’t interesting

I no longer long for a girl
To keep me occupied
I don’t want some girl
To take up all my time

I want to make my life
The way I always dreamed
Get it to a certain height
And enjoy the scenery

Then once I am truly happy
I will find someone who
Appreciated who and what
I am and what i do

I don’t need to change
I don’t need to conform
You can choose to stay
Or I can show you the door

I have a lot of love to give
And can have fun for days
But don’t expect me to live
Like someone you created.

Broke Ass Blues

I’ve been pushed down and got back up

I was down and out and ready to surrender

but when the chips begine to stack up

i find a way to come out a winner

Everytime i figure out how to survive

something else tries to choke me

I know that i can do it and im trying

but i can feel a breakdown approching

Every month i have unexpected troubles

and ever month i work it out fine

but as time goes on, the troubles double

and i’m about to lose my mind

There is only one thing in my life

that has stopped me from going insane

In my darkened mood, she is the light

and she is the only reason i feel no pain

All I feel is love when i hear her voice

The memory of her kiss has stayed vivid

My life with her gives me reason to rejoice

and this shit now, is something I can live with

I know one day my hard work and pain

will only make me a stronger man

I just have to keep myself somewhat sane

I just have to remember the longer plan. 

Don’t wake me

What else can I say aloud

That hasnt already been heard

What else can i write down

Thats not already in words

Is it even possible today

To express feelings in song

without sounding so cliche

cause its been so overdone

Can words still capture and describe

feelings like the ones I have for you

Does it matter how they transcribe

As long as they are real and true

Motivated still,by the feelings inside me

I sit here alone, by the glow of the screen

Without even thinking, I tap every key.

I dont have to sleep, this is already a dream

My Sun..

Have you eve love someone so much

that you are willing to give them up

cause you know its what their asking

and you’ll do anything to make em happy

I have come to that same conclusion

after some long weeks of confusion

and all i ask now is the strength to proceed

in giving her what she feels that she needs

I can no longer fight for what i think is right

when all i’m doing is causing harm on the inside

I pray everyday that she will say it was a mistake

and that she loves me and misses me everyday

But i know that these are just wishful thoughts

and i must accept my failure and take the loss

Maybe one day i will find the meaning behind this

and I will understand that was overall for the best

But as for today, and the near future to come

I will remain in the dark, cause she was my sun.