March 2013
6 posts
4 tags
5 minutes
Just give me 5 minutes of your time
Let me say everything that I can
Let me take you inside my mind
Maybe then you will truly understand
I can’t do it by text or by verse
And I can’t do it over the phone
It’s too complex to converse
If We are both home alone
I want to look you in the eyes
I want you to see my face
I want you to feel on the inside
How I feel about you...
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Voice to text..
They say I’m genius
Or maybe insane
never think with my penis
Always with my brain.
I over think everything
To the point I can’t sleep
Up all night thinking
Instead of counting sheep
My words are mine
And mine alone
Sometimes they rhyme
Sometimes, no.
It’s whatever I feel
I have to get them out
But things too real
To speak out my mouth
So this notepad became
What...
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This time around.
Seems like every few years
I get back in the same rut
Soak my face with new tears
And swear I’ll change but..
Here in am again, same routine
But something’s different..
Something has changed me
Some things aren’t interesting
I no longer long for a girl
To keep me occupied
I don’t want some girl
To take up all my time
I want to make my life
The way I always...
September 2011
3 posts
Broke Ass Blues
I’ve been pushed down and got back up
I was down and out and ready to surrender
but when the chips begine to stack up
i find a way to come out a winner
Everytime i figure out how to survive
something else tries to choke me
I know that i can do it and im trying
but i can feel a breakdown approching
Every month i have unexpected troubles
and ever month i work it out fine
but as...
Don't wake me
What else can I say aloud
That hasnt already been heard
What else can i write down
Thats not already in words
Is it even possible today
To express feelings in song
without sounding so cliche
cause its been so overdone
Can words still capture and describe
feelings like the ones I have for you
Does it matter how they transcribe
As long as they are real and true
Motivated still,by the...
July 2011
5 posts
My Sun..
Have you eve love someone so much
that you are willing to give them up
cause you know its what their asking
and you’ll do anything to make em happy
I have come to that same conclusion
after some long weeks of confusion
and all i ask now is the strength to proceed
in giving her what she feels that she needs
I can no longer fight for what i think is right
when all i’m doing is...
“I gave up my life for you, totally devoted to you while I stayed, thankful all...”
– Eminem-Space bound
“Remember that time I made you smile?? If you don’t know which time,then...”
– me
“A pen in one hand, a bottle in the other, Writing shit i can’t bother to...”
– me
“You’re in pain cause you fell out of love, I’m in pain cause I...”
– me
June 2011
9 posts
New beginnings
In the depths of my mind, i was lost in the thoughts of you,
forced to accept life didn’t turn out like it was supposed to.
Now here I sit in my empty room,everything has changed,
Up is down,left is right, and happiness has turned to pain.
I did all I could do, and pushed myself to the extremes
To make you realize how much of you mean to me.
But it wasn’t enough to lead you back...
drunk and not caring
I dont really care if this ryhmes or not
You fucking tore out my heart and stomped it
how much more can i put my self through
why can you see all ive done for you
if i cant have you
then id rather die
without you in my life
its seems pointless
and the way things are headed
i c an see you’re on your way
to havinbg a new boyfriend
please dont let me get in the way
i only spent 8...
Cant stop hoping
I have begged,I offered everything. I told u I was sorry,
My offer is on the table. You know how to call me
I cannot ever ever make you feel something you don’t
And I can’t wish for anything more. I just won’t.
If you love me and just don’t trust me then fine
I will have to live with those stupid mistakes forever
But before you sign you name on that dotted line
I...
Recovery pt1
A pen in one hand, a bottle in the other
Which one is better, sometimes I wonder,
This life has thrown me a curve ball or four
And at this point, theres nothing i cant control
Dont mistake these positive words and their vanity
I am far from being healed and farther from sanity
I just have a newer outlook on life and its journey
And through these tears i can see it more clearly
I will look...
Meds
These meds I’m taking, arent working at all,
My brain is feels like its shaking, I cant wait to end it all.
The time moves slowly, and my mind races faster
trying to not let this control me,but i cant master.
Everywhere I go, all i see is happiness and love
Are they taunting me? “ALRIGHT!! THATS ENOUGH”
Sick of feeling like I failed again,
Sick of the looks I get from...
Everything happens for a reason
As the bus leaves the station
its a few minutes past 3
A single tear runs down his face
as she waves goodbye from her seat
He knows she gone for good
and he wishes her the best
He pushed her away
and all he has is regrets
~chorus~
There will times in this life
when you’d wish to die
And the whole world against you
and no ones on your side
But before you start screaming
and look...
Silence and nothing more.
In the darkness of my mind
I can hear nothing but silence
Its an awful sound
worst than violence
Silence can break a soul
and spawl it on the floor
This silence i cannot ignore
quietness here and nothing more
deep deep deep
in the back of my mind
i try to sleep sleep sleep
i’m tired of trying
My ears listen more
for anything at all
this silence i cannot...
Willing to love..
Im staring at this blank page
feeling the words inside me
They’re controlling my brain
everything else is so cloudy
Its hard to focus on life
when all i see is your face
Its hard to sleep at night
without your warm embrace
I keep trying to convince myself
that i’ll benefit from this time alone
and once you’ve found yourself
you’ll tell me to come home
And yet...
Many Words
So many thoughts,
So few words,
So much time,
in this empty world,
So much pain,
So little time
My body is numb,
and so is my mind,
I could write a book
from the tears i’ve shed
It would be the longest book
that you’ve ever read.
Life without you,
Seems so empty
Its sad that it took this
for it all to hit me.
I neglected your love
and put it to the side.
I regret...
