June 2011
9 posts
New beginnings
In the depths of my mind, i was lost in the thoughts of you,
forced to accept life didn’t turn out like it was supposed to.
Now here I sit in my empty room,everything has changed,
Up is down,left is right, and happiness has turned to pain.
I did all I could do, and pushed myself to the extremes
To make you realize how much of you mean to me.
But it wasn’t enough to lead you back...
drunk and not caring
I dont really care if this ryhmes or not
You fucking tore out my heart and stomped it
how much more can i put my self through
why can you see all ive done for you
if i cant have you
then id rather die
without you in my life
its seems pointless
and the way things are headed
i c an see you’re on your way
to havinbg a new boyfriend
please dont let me get in the way
i only spent 8...
Cant stop hoping
I have begged,I offered everything. I told u I was sorry,
My offer is on the table. You know how to call me
I cannot ever ever make you feel something you don’t
And I can’t wish for anything more. I just won’t.
If you love me and just don’t trust me then fine
I will have to live with those stupid mistakes forever
But before you sign you name on that dotted line
I...
Recovery pt1
A pen in one hand, a bottle in the other
Which one is better, sometimes I wonder,
This life has thrown me a curve ball or four
And at this point, theres nothing i cant control
Dont mistake these positive words and their vanity
I am far from being healed and farther from sanity
I just have a newer outlook on life and its journey
And through these tears i can see it more clearly
I will look...
Meds
These meds I’m taking, arent working at all,
My brain is feels like its shaking, I cant wait to end it all.
The time moves slowly, and my mind races faster
trying to not let this control me,but i cant master.
Everywhere I go, all i see is happiness and love
Are they taunting me? “ALRIGHT!! THATS ENOUGH”
Sick of feeling like I failed again,
Sick of the looks I get from...
Everything happens for a reason
As the bus leaves the station
its a few minutes past 3
A single tear runs down his face
as she waves goodbye from her seat
He knows she gone for good
and he wishes her the best
He pushed her away
and all he has is regrets
~chorus~
There will times in this life
when you’d wish to die
And the whole world against you
and no ones on your side
But before you start screaming
and look...
Silence and nothing more.
In the darkness of my mind
I can hear nothing but silence
Its an awful sound
worst than violence
Silence can break a soul
and spawl it on the floor
This silence i cannot ignore
quietness here and nothing more
deep deep deep
in the back of my mind
i try to sleep sleep sleep
i’m tired of trying
My ears listen more
for anything at all
this silence i cannot...
Willing to love..
Im staring at this blank page
feeling the words inside me
They’re controlling my brain
everything else is so cloudy
Its hard to focus on life
when all i see is your face
Its hard to sleep at night
without your warm embrace
I keep trying to convince myself
that i’ll benefit from this time alone
and once you’ve found yourself
you’ll tell me to come home
And yet...
Many Words
So many thoughts,
So few words,
So much time,
in this empty world,
So much pain,
So little time
My body is numb,
and so is my mind,
I could write a book
from the tears i’ve shed
It would be the longest book
that you’ve ever read.
Life without you,
Seems so empty
Its sad that it took this
for it all to hit me.
I neglected your love
and put it to the side.
I regret...
